Becoming…my Jewish blog

a hazzled (hassled+frazzled) mother who is just feeling low-key and wishing for some inspirational strength.

Here is an article on the Chabad website I liked today “If you could be G-d for one week, what would you do” that actually seems like a good intro into Judaism…at least the way I introduced myself to it over the internet. It fits in better with my recent more-agnostic leanings that have been not strong enough to disturb me, yet.

Actually I think it’s good that I was getting away from my overly detailed analysis of everything. I was getting too involved in understanding details to the point it could have backlashed.

I am sad today at the same time as I am proud of my improvements as a healthy person.

Sad about:

• My shouting at my kids, even though it has been much less since I made a resolve to stop shouting a few weeks ago. (I am never sure if I fall in the mid-range of shouty-type mothers, although I suspect that I do. I am not a horrible howling monster, but I also do not always keep a level calm tone. Well only in public, anyway.
• Still not getting dinner on time
• Not having planned our budget and figured out how much I need to work now that the baby’s born; I keep hoping if I don’t that I’ll find out we are just fine with me at home working only an occasional hour or so, but really all I can say is: HA HA. REALITY CHECK PLEASE!!
• My little baby has a cold
• My friend’s little baby is not strong: any of you reading this, who does feel the urge, please say a little prayer that the baby become stronger and come home soon
• That I have not edited this post, and I am not sure what to delete since it looks mostly blah so far.

Things that I am happy about

• That I have enough presence of mind to write a happy list to balance out the sad list
• the relatively good health of my family members
• the pleasant mood my husband’s been in (he hasn’t complained too much…well, not too much…about the late dinners)
• Internet connection
• NPR radio
• The place we live is clean and warm, Thank G-d

I apologize about the un-well formed post, but this is today’s mode. Not perfect, but something.

…somehow have contributed to my dark humor of the morning.

Organizing, cleaning, gathering info for movement forward in my life: trying to make a plan of action for living in my life.


Your Thinking is Abstract and Random

You are flexible, adaptable, and creative. There’s many ways that you can learn - and you’re up for any of them. You relate well to other people, and you do well working in groups. You can help people communicate together and work with each other’s strengths. You don’t work well with people who are competitive or adversarial. You prefer to work toward a common goal… not toward conflicting goals.

What Kind of Thinker Are You?