Well, after rereading my last post, it sounds as if G-d wants us to suffer when we “don’t obey.” That’s not what I meant at all. Just that, there are some things that we are meant to do, and the energy that is given to us to do them is given in a way that it is meant to be used for that specific plan. If I use it otherwise, the energy hurts me, instead of helping. Sort of like, a river is easy to swim in, when I am going with the flow—if I begin swimming upstream it becomes a struggle, of lesser or greater degree, depending on how strong the flow is downstream.
I still haven’t decided to what extent I think we are involved in deciding the direction of these plans.
But I am definitely sure, that to go against the flow, causes pain to me, and also many times to those close to me.
How to feel which way the flow is going from day to day?