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after re-reading the last post

FemaleJewishBlogger — Sun, 06 Sep 2009 03:57:52 +0000

Well, after rereading my last post, it sounds as if G-d wants us to suffer when we “don’t obey.” That’s not what I meant at all. Just that, there are some things that we are meant to do, and the energy that is given to us to do them is given in a way that it is meant to be used for that specific plan. If I use it otherwise, the energy hurts me, instead of helping. Sort of like, a river is easy to swim in, when I am going with the flow—if I begin swimming upstream it becomes a struggle, of lesser or greater degree, depending on how strong the flow is downstream.

I still haven’t decided to what extent I think we are involved in deciding the direction of these plans.

But I am definitely sure, that to go against the flow, causes pain to me, and also many times to those close to me.

How to feel which way the flow is going from day to day?

Trust

FemaleJewishBlogger — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 19:17:24 +0000

G-d trusts us so much. It’s not a question of does G-d trust us. It’s 100%. I think that’s why we have trouble. We are just going along and thinking that G-d is watching over us, judging us and so on: but G-d trusts us! We have been given everything, and it is our will to survive and do good. Free choice, yah here it comes!

From an idea that G-d wants us to put into action, to a baby, every step of the way, we are given responsibility. Now, that doesn’t mean we are operating in a vacuum. Maybe there are other people put on this Earth to work on the same thing. But when it comes to types of bosses, G-d is definitely the ‘hand it over and do it your own way’ kind of boss. and a ‘you don’t have to do it if you don’t want to, but then you’re going to suffer’ too. If I don’t do what G-d wants then G-d has all this energy related to this one given thing that is meant to go into it. And where does it go then? Into suffering.
Thank you G-d for trusting me with this energy.

She is everywhere, He is everywhere

FemaleJewishBlogger — Mon, 17 Aug 2009 16:36:30 +0000

I think G-d is moving us in directions that we want to go.

I think that if I or someone else tries to connect with G-d as if She can be expected to always seem the same, then we are underestimating G-d.

I don’t have an idea of how G-d is really supposed to be. If I say, “you should seem like this, or how I imagine G-d to be holy,” isn’t that missing the point?

How can I know how G-d is going to seem this time I see Her?
Do I know what my friends will be like when I go to meet them for coffee or they are picking up for carpool one morning? Do I know what clothes they are going to wear or expression they will have on their faces? Do I know their mood? Can I expect a particular tone of voice? Or am I most likely to meet a true self in my friend if I don’t expect, but just wait and see?

What do you think?

FemaleJewishBlogger — Mon, 17 Aug 2009 16:35:14 +0000

Getting used to writing more regular posts. It looks as if I am very depressed, if I look at the past few posts.

I am not.

I am very busy.

I have lots of interesting thoughts as I drive between work and home and so on, every day.

What do you think about Moshiach? I can imagine a world peace.

What do you think about there really being a God that is deciding things for us in some sort of human way?

How can we believe in something so specific as God inspiring a book with things that seem more like a history than anything else?

Can we be good people if we don’t believe in the ulitmate purpose of humanity?

What if we are making our own purpose together?

What do you think?

What gives?

FemaleJewishBlogger — Tue, 10 Feb 2009 15:58:39 +0000

I suddenly decide I believe in God. I decide that life is as you make it. What gives?

Let my eyes see good

FemaleJewishBlogger — Wed, 16 Jan 2008 20:53:36 +0000

During a conflict with someone close to me last night, a little prayer came to me. I closed my eyes and said:

Hash-m, let my eyes see good when I open them, so that I can deal with this situation positively.

It worked wonders.

I will be saying this prayer many situations now, since it seems so apt to help keep a positive and creative attitude.

Hash-m, let my eyes see good…

Sin of Idolatry

FemaleJewishBlogger — Wed, 04 Apr 2007 22:06:00 +0000

You know, I think of idolatry as a sin not in as a “wrongdoing,” but maybe more as having a mistaken understanding of the way things work.
I think of it as Hash-m is an ultimate power, and all else is of lesser strength–so when we grasp at a straw, or a string or even a rope, it is never as strong as our trusting above all in Hash-m, and when we grasp at something lesser, it always has the possibility of breaking.

That is the freedom and correctness of not being “idolotrous” in any way.

We idolize our relationships (oh, if only he/she liked me)
We idolize material things (if I had this car/house/etc I could be happy and at peace)

All this can be taken away. Only inner peace survives–and inner peace exists when we are in concurrence with Hash-m’s rules of operation. I don’t pretend to understand all of the rules yet, most likely not ever, but I do feel that searching for them and acting upon them is the surest way to true joy.