Here is an article on the Chabad website I liked today “If you could be G-d for one week, what would you do” that actually seems like a good intro into Judaism…at least the way I introduced myself to it over the internet. It fits in better with my recent more-agnostic leanings that have been not strong enough to disturb me, yet.

Actually I think it’s good that I was getting away from my overly detailed analysis of everything. I was getting too involved in understanding details to the point it could have backlashed.

I am sad today at the same time as I am proud of my improvements as a healthy person.

Sad about:

• My shouting at my kids, even though it has been much less since I made a resolve to stop shouting a few weeks ago. (I am never sure if I fall in the mid-range of shouty-type mothers, although I suspect that I do. I am not a horrible howling monster, but I also do not always keep a level calm tone. Well only in public, anyway.
• Still not getting dinner on time
• Not having planned our budget and figured out how much I need to work now that the baby’s born; I keep hoping if I don’t that I’ll find out we are just fine with me at home working only an occasional hour or so, but really all I can say is: HA HA. REALITY CHECK PLEASE!!
• My little baby has a cold
• My friend’s little baby is not strong: any of you reading this, who does feel the urge, please say a little prayer that the baby become stronger and come home soon
• That I have not edited this post, and I am not sure what to delete since it looks mostly blah so far.

Things that I am happy about

• That I have enough presence of mind to write a happy list to balance out the sad list
• the relatively good health of my family members
• the pleasant mood my husband’s been in (he hasn’t complained too much…well, not too much…about the late dinners)
• Internet connection
• NPR radio
• The place we live is clean and warm, Thank G-d

I apologize about the un-well formed post, but this is today’s mode. Not perfect, but something.